outside these walls i see
two crimson lights
beacons that call me to write
and to cry
to cry for the nights i cry
to cry for the days i spent inside these walls
stagnant
motionless in my soul
yearning to cry out
scream
ask for help
ask for forgiveness
ask for anything to make these walls disappear
crimson lights are no match
for the darkness that hovers
that keeps me encaged
and that i am afraid to leave
nothing will change the past my friend
only you can change the future
i have so much love around me but i can't embrace it
for the love that i desire is unavailable
lost
gone forever
and irretrievable
"be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart" - rainer maria rilke
